Be true to yourself

So, you want to kill yourself?

thenameiskfin — Mon, 29 Apr 2013 19:34:41 -0400

Wanna kill yourself?
Imagine this; You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. The whole school talks to a counselor/therapist at least once a week. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up.

I was having a shitty day, and I kept trying to be positive, but...

thenameiskfin — Sun, 28 Apr 2013 18:12:29 -0400

I was having a shitty day, and I kept trying to be positive, but something kept making my day worst until I seen this on my newsfeed on facebook. Little things like this give me some hope, and this brightened my day C: <3

"Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get..."

thenameiskfin — Sun, 14 Apr 2013 14:42:41 -0400

“Love yourself first and everything else falls into line. You really have to love yourself to get anything done in this world.”

- Lucille Ball

You REALLY like Onision huh?

thenameiskfin — Sun, 07 Apr 2013 22:22:13 -0400

I am a fan of his. He is one of my favorite YouTubers. lol He has inspired me. Also funny as hell.

Okay okay alright… uhm I was mentioned in this video. And...

thenameiskfin — Sun, 07 Apr 2013 18:08:16 -0400

Okay okay alright… uhm I was mentioned in this video. And according to everyone I am the girl who helped Greg cheat on his wife. LOL NO. Not true. HHAHAH I am like laughing my ass off right now. Thanks guys. I would never help someone cheat nor cheat on anyone that is awful. xD But thank you Greg for showing my fail in the video.

Why would anyone think that?

So this would be my boyfriend (Chris) and his friend Jake. They...

thenameiskfin — Tue, 26 Mar 2013 18:09:09 -0400

So this would be my boyfriend (Chris) and his friend Jake. They make YouTube videos, check out this video, like and subscribe (:

waterglow: n4stygall: I AM CRYING OH MY GOD I CAN’T I LOST mY...

thenameiskfin — Sun, 24 Feb 2013 00:58:46 -0500

waterglow:

n4stygall:

I AM CRYING

OH MY GOD I CAN’T I LOST mY ShIT OMFG

Haha yesss

paging-doctorfaggot: me in the morning Whut.

thenameiskfin — Fri, 25 Jan 2013 18:56:10 -0500

paging-doctorfaggot:

me in the morning

Whut.

the-absolute-best-gifs: (via/follow The Absolute Best...

thenameiskfin — Fri, 25 Jan 2013 16:27:57 -0500

the-absolute-best-gifs:

(via/follow The Absolute Best GIFs)

Heyyyy Arnolllddd:)

Lmao. WTF did I just watch?

thenameiskfin — Wed, 23 Jan 2013 15:27:05 -0500

Lmao. WTF did I just watch?

YES YES OMGGGG YESSSS. HE BROUGHT BACK SHARRON BARRON <3...

thenameiskfin — Wed, 23 Jan 2013 00:39:07 -0500

YES YES OMGGGG YESSSS. HE BROUGHT BACK SHARRON BARRON <3 Hhahahahahaha hilarious! :D I think White (is that is name the fat cousin?) and Sharron should date. Perfect for each other. hahahahha

The last guy hahaha (: he was laughing so hard.

thenameiskfin — Mon, 21 Jan 2013 01:35:46 -0500

The last guy hahaha (: he was laughing so hard.

So I was watching Sexy Fails… and the video stopped to...

thenameiskfin — Sun, 20 Jan 2013 15:26:40 -0500

So I was watching Sexy Fails… and the video stopped to load and I couldn’t help take this screen shot. hahahaha xD “Dat ass” could be a caption option. xD Such a creepy face. haha I <3 you Greg. This is too funny.

I think I have posted this before, but I feel like this is what...

thenameiskfin — Sat, 19 Jan 2013 10:34:50 -0500

I think I have posted this before, but I feel like this is what happens in the bedroom, like Lainey is sitting there.. and then he just runs in and is like LETS DO THIS *batman voice* lmao. Just a thought. xD

She is a very lucky lady to have Greg. I mean, just ermmm sexy and whatnot. haah

REMINDS ME OF HIS LATEST VIDEO

thenameiskfin — Sat, 05 Jan 2013 00:48:16 -0500

REMINDS ME OF HIS LATEST VIDEO

Damn Captain America. xD FATTY.

thenameiskfin — Fri, 04 Jan 2013 23:25:47 -0500

Damn Captain America. xD FATTY.

:)

thenameiskfin — Fri, 04 Jan 2013 23:12:53 -0500

Old. but BOOBS. lol

thenameiskfin — Fri, 04 Jan 2013 17:31:21 -0500

Old. but BOOBS. lol

Rememberlove247 New Theme! Check it out and let me know what you think?

thenameiskfin — Fri, 28 Dec 2012 16:19:31 -0500

Rememberlove247 New Theme! Check it out and let me know what you think?

Re customizing Onision blog.

thenameiskfin — Fri, 28 Dec 2012 16:07:28 -0500

I am re customizing this blog… and on the side there is picture of scary buffy man:( GO AWAY I AM GETTING RID OF YOUR URL and putting GREG. WHY WONT THIS CHANGE?!